*sigh*

How is it, that just 2 1/2 short weeks ago, I was all gung-ho about being grateful for my blessings, and now I can feel just so...ho-hum. I feel like I would make Eeyore look like the life of the party! How can I, just one day after returning from an incredible 4-night (childless) vacation with the hubby, feel so blue? How can I have a life that is so full, and yet feel so empty?

My husband often chides me for not feeling more satisfied with my life, and he is right. I know this is not a feel-good, lift-you-up kind of blog topic, but it is what is on my heart right now...not even the Christmas carols streaming on Pandora are cheering me up today. My problem is, and I know this (in part thanks to my husband's aforementioned chiding), that I count on the things in my life to make me happy--which can never truly happen. I allow the circumstances of my life to control me, dictate how I feel. And, the more I allow the circumstances to control me, the things that I think I want & need to fill my heart with sadness, the less I allow God to control my life and the less I allow his peace to fill my heart with joy.

I know it isn't time for New Year's resolutions, yet, but is there ever a bad time to resolve to improve your life?? My resolution is to let God control me, not my circumstances or situations, and to let joy, His joy, fill my heart, not sadness and dissatisfaction. Do you have any resolutions that you would like to make in your life? If so, please share!